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it breaks my heart - you're wearing cardigans!
03 November 2011 @ 09:14 pm
I SHALL BE SNEAKY AND POST HERE INSTEAD. 

HOPEFULLY PEOPLE HAVEN'T ADDED ME ON THIS. 



I JUST NEED A SPACE WHERE I'M NOT IRRITATING PEOPLE WITH MY CRAPPY THOUGHTS, THAT'S ALL
 
 
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it breaks my heart - you're wearing cardigans!
03 December 2009 @ 08:03 pm


moved to scandalouslyso
 
 
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it breaks my heart - you're wearing cardigans!
17 April 2009 @ 09:54 pm
 
 
 
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it breaks my heart - you're wearing cardigans!
Doesn't matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives, trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.

-Alex Karev, Grey's Anatomy






wasn't a very good day today. was really heart-breaking, seeing all my aunties and uncles crying their hearts out for a boy who made a stupid decision. at some point, i'm angry with keith for not thinking twice when he decided to take the fall. he probably didn't think about the pain he'd give people who loved him. and i'm also sad because firstly, he didn't know God, and secondly, his committing suicide would guarantee a no-entry-into-heaven card, which is hard for christians to swallow. the thought of another soul going to waste.

and it hurts me most to think about the future he could have had. and in that future, he could have known God. everybody feels guilty about not reaching out to him enough. he was always a quiet kid, always in deep thought. he was smart too, but not the smart we think of and want to be. and he always cared.

he was truly a good brother. and a good son -a Golden Boy- who left. it's really sad, 'cause nobody should ever die at 15. 



whoever's reading this, pleasepleaseplease pray that the rest of the family remains strong, and doesn't make any other stupid mistakes like that.


xoxo,
S



why would you do such a thing, keith?
what have you done?



 
 
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it breaks my heart - you're wearing cardigans!
07 February 2009 @ 02:07 pm


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